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As most of you know, I have most of my poetry and photography in storage. (hundreds) I won't rehash the reasons.
I haven't been listening to music very much nor writing very much poetry, but I have posted a couple of poems that came to me recently.

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I know the friendship is over this time. the fact that he blocked me while we are in the same groups, makes me feel a certain freedom. I can't see who he talks to or what he says--and since he can't see that I'm there-he will forget me. Dear God, take him from my heart and mind SOON.

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Everyone has offered so much encouragement but my conscience would not rest until I announced the end of my fundraiser on GoFundMe and that I wish to refund the money. There's just no way around Chris' credit issue. Who would have thought Fargo, North Dakota would be the place where ALL my problems would be solved. My promise land. I hate Florida. Yeah, it's 80 degrees when everyone else is snowed in but my husband nor I can get health care here. It will shorten our lives. 

I'm still not missing facebook and I should be falling off the radar of most. I need to just aschew all social media.

 My daughter and I have reacted differently to the progression of my husband's early onset Alzheimer's disease but we did share a common thought. We both can't remember what he was like before. We can't remember his real voice. What he looked like when he stood up straight and interacted with us. When he had conversations--lucid conversations. He would hate how he is now. Having to be fed and bathed and dressed and all but toileted. WHY CAN'T WE REMEMBER HIM???
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: songs in my head
  • Reading: Giants in the Earth
  • Watching: Downton Abbey, Law n Order SVU
  • Playing: house
  • Drinking: Diet Coke

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God, letting go is so hard even though I know it's just an illusion. There was never anything to hang on to. Just let him go....and pity the poor woman who is currently falling for his bullshit. 

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Blanzeflor
Imagining Flying
United States
Current Residence: My home is in my head. HOusTon to you.
Favourite photographer: Mattioli13, Erriewon, Tangledweb, Karil
Favourite style of art: fantasy, surreal, black & white photography
Operating System: estrogen and being ADHD
MP3 player of choice: part of the unwashed masses enslaved to the iPod cartel
Shell of choice: One with a pearl in it
Wallpaper of choice: Something easily removable--I hate commitment.
Skin of choice: younger
Favourite cartoon character: Mitsuru Kirijyo Scooby Saya & Hagi Sasake & Sakura Namine & Roxas
Personal Quote: Entering one’s study & touching the books can brighten one’s mood..King Chongjo
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Everyone has offered so much encouragement but my conscience would not rest until I announced the end of my fundraiser on GoFundMe and that I wish to refund the money. There's just no way around Chris' credit issue. Who would have thought Fargo, North Dakota would be the place where ALL my problems would be solved. My promise land. I hate Florida. Yeah, it's 80 degrees when everyone else is snowed in but my husband nor I can get health care here. It will shorten our lives. 

I'm still not missing facebook and I should be falling off the radar of most. I need to just aschew all social media.

 My daughter and I have reacted differently to the progression of my husband's early onset Alzheimer's disease but we did share a common thought. We both can't remember what he was like before. We can't remember his real voice. What he looked like when he stood up straight and interacted with us. When he had conversations--lucid conversations. He would hate how he is now. Having to be fed and bathed and dressed and all but toileted. WHY CAN'T WE REMEMBER HIM???
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: songs in my head
  • Reading: Giants in the Earth
  • Watching: Downton Abbey, Law n Order SVU
  • Playing: house
  • Drinking: Diet Coke

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Lady-Yume Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014   Writer
Hello,

Thank you so much for wandering through my gallery and adding my work to your +devwatch!

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Schieben Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too Party
Hope you have a good one! :) (Smile)
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BrokenOpen Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2013
I don't know if you will see this, or even if you remember me, but I just wanted to say that I am still alive and still remember you and Kirsten. Life has taken a crazy road for me and that is why I don't come on DA anymore. But I am still here and I wanted to say hi.
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BEN13th Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for faving my "What is beauty?" piece! 
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Hamish-Frost Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013
thank you :heart:
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Schieben Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake:
Hope you have a good one! :)
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ice-or-fire Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
Hello!:iconomgcakeplz:
Happy [early] birthday!
May the best of your wishes be the least of what you get!
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Adrianna-Grezak Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2013
Thank you for fav-ing my homage to MC Escher! Feel free to follow me on Facebook [link] by clicking the "Like" button!
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birthdays Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2012
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the *birthdays team, I sincerely apologise that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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anime116 Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2012  Student General Artist
happy birthday! i hope everything is going your way
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