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As most of you know, I have most of my poetry and photography in storage. (hundreds) I won't rehash the reasons.
I haven't been listening to music very much nor writing very much poetry, but I have posted a couple of poems that came to me recently.

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Imagining Flying
United States
Current Residence: My home is in my head. HOusTon to you.
Favourite photographer: Mattioli13, Erriewon, Tangledweb, Karil
Favourite style of art: fantasy, surreal, black & white photography
Operating System: estrogen and being ADHD
MP3 player of choice: part of the unwashed masses enslaved to the iPod cartel
Shell of choice: One with a pearl in it
Wallpaper of choice: Something easily removable--I hate commitment.
Skin of choice: younger
Favourite cartoon character: Mitsuru Kirijyo Scooby Saya & Hagi Sasake & Sakura Namine & Roxas
Personal Quote: Entering one’s study & touching the books can brighten one’s mood..King Chongjo
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....and ends the same, so why whine and opine and write. Let go. Move on. Find another dream.

I HATE FLORIDA WITH THE HEAT OF A THOUSAND RED HOT SUNS.

I hate the climate, the people, the vibe, the mindset. It's getting expensive to live here and yet everyone thinks it is paradise. 

I need money to dream much less move. I want to go where there are 4 seasons and snow. I don't give a righteous damn about everyone else's bitching about bitter winters. Do they think I'm some Southern wimp They don't know how stubborn I am. 

It's just that I want to live. I need to live. Chris is never going to be better. I need to prepare for life after him now. I feel guilt about that but I know it is foolish not to think or plan. The stress and isolation are making me feel depressed. I NEVER sleep enough nor do I wake up feeling refreshed or well rested. Never. I feel trapped. I feel stuck. I feel stupid because I can't do well for him and give him the best quality of life because I can't drive and do for him.

But I'm pretty realistic, I know I am probably stuck in effing Florida forever. I'll die here. I just hope I die young. Many caregivers do. 
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: River of Tears--Eric Clapton
  • Drinking: iced tea

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Schieben Mar 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too Party
Hope you have a good one! :) (Smile)
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I don't know if you will see this, or even if you remember me, but I just wanted to say that I am still alive and still remember you and Kirsten. Life has taken a crazy road for me and that is why I don't come on DA anymore. But I am still here and I wanted to say hi.
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BEN13th Sep 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for faving my "What is beauty?" piece! 
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Schieben Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake:
Hope you have a good one! :)
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Hello!:iconomgcakeplz:
Happy [early] birthday!
May the best of your wishes be the least of what you get!
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Thank you for fav-ing my homage to MC Escher! Feel free to follow me on Facebook [link] by clicking the "Like" button!
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the *birthdays team, I sincerely apologise that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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anime116 Mar 8, 2012  Student General Artist
happy birthday! i hope everything is going your way
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Schieben Mar 8, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake:
Hope you have a good one! :)
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